I want to be honest and say how it is: I am 40 and spent the last 20 years mostly hiding in my cave, but sometimes working as a gardener, translator/transcriber, business consultant, carpenter, and waiter for a bit.
I never really aspired to do these works. They just came my way and mostly i was asked to do them.
I never really had the necessity to work at all and had an abundance of time in my hands. I used that time to educate myself in different fields: Quantum mechanics, Magnetism, Philosophy , Social Engineering , History, Psychology, Biology, CNC Lasers, Graphic Design, Acoustics and many more. I speak and write fluently in German and English. I have the basics in Spanish and French. My Latin is OK.
When i meet new people who have degrees, they almost always ask me which degrees i have and which company i am the CEO of and are extremely confused when i tell them about my lifestyle. People close to me (Family and Friends) are sad and worried about my lifestyle and think that i waste my time and talents. When they have problems and questions of importance, they consult me on the other hand.
I think i have these two main problems:
I am no super-expert in any field. I am a special type of allrounder and i am not sure how to profit from a vast set of knowledge and skills that might be not connected, and i dont know how to profit from that without specialization . I dont even know if and where there is a place for such an allrounder in todays work environments or society for the lack of better words.
The second problem i think i have is, that i despise the way governments, politics, money, taxation, media and "society" as a whole work. But i love working per se. I love it when "customers" are satisfied with my work and express their gratitude and compensate my work accordingly. But i have a problem demanding the appropriate monetary compensation for my work because i despise the fiscal system. When i sell myself, I sell myself for less than fair value.
And i hate math. XD
I am a sceptic analytic realist with a strong tendency towards optimism. On the other hand i hinder myself and stop myself in my own tracks if something does not work the way i would see it fit and reasonable.
And until now i could afford this behaviour.
However, my living conditions are about to change drastically in the next 6-12 month, if i dont find a way to capitalize my knowledge, skills and abilities.
I strongly believe that i have to quickly find a way to overcome my defensive and resistant attitude towards the system and focus of the benefits i would have if i found my way. The only alternative to that would be going into politics because there are millions of people who share the same disgust about the same things i mentioned. But i hate politics as it is right now.
So here you have it...